"12 Monkeys"
The movie was about a man who was traveling back and forth in time in an attempt to stop a world-wide pandemic before it killed over five billion people, which he knew would happen as he had come from the future and had seen the results firsthand. It also starred Brad Pitt, whose career I had been following.
The movie made me weep so deeply, that I wondered if I would survive the weeping. The emotion I felt from the Bruce Willis character trying to figure out what was going on, was similar to the way I felt in dealing with these dreams I had, and my wonderings about what lay in the future for me and our country.
In a way, my glimpses of the future gave me an experience similar to time travel. I would see the future only to return to the present wondering if what I saw was real or not. Can any of this be stopped? Or are we just headed there no matter what?
The pain in my heart over the years has always been something I have not been able to get rid of. But despite the pain, I have always had a certain peace about it all and a knowing that God most certainly wants the best for humanity and somehow, someway, there was a reason I had these dreams and visions. Something good will come of them in the end and it will have all been worth the pain of it.