"Condemnation"
One Monday night I was late for the meeting at Pat’s. Everyone else was there when I arrived but as I walked up to his door, an angel appeared to me. He was very tall and was leaning over the house looking down into the room from the roof level. I could tell he wanted to talk but as I was late, I told him that I would talk to him later.
The room was full, but I found a chair. Sitting down, I couldn’t keep from thinking about the angel and wondering what he wanted to talk about. Pat saw I was fidgeting and asked me if I was alright. I told him about the angel wanting to talk but I came in here because I was late already. He suggested I go back out and see what he wanted, and I did.
The angel was still looking into the room from above but would look up at me, and then look back down again. I waited to see what he was going to say. He looked up at me and said, “Forgiveness”. He then looked into the room again, looked back up at me, and continued, “destroys condemnation”.
We, as in the whole group meeting at Pat’s, had been dealing with a spirit of condemnation for about a month and I had been wondering what was causing it, wondering why it wouldn’t leave.
The more I thought about the statement he had made, the more freeing it became to me, forgiving others and receiving forgiveness and how it utterly destroyed condemnation. The impact of this soaked into my soul and spirit. What a wonderful thought.
I stood there and he spoke again for a few minutes, when I looked up on the other side of the roof to my left, I saw the Lord sitting there. He looked at me intently and asked, “Do you want to know the Apostolic?”
Not really knowing what to think about his question or what to say, I slowly responded, “I think I do.”
He then said, “You can own nothing, not even the words that come from your mouth.”
This statement showed me a different view of complete surrender that I had never thought about. So many times, when operating in the prophetic, I had to completely surrender and let the Lord take the event where he wanted and just follow his promptings. This was so much deeper, and I still think about it often.
Learning to surrender has been my weakest of efforts. I tend to try to overthink what is being presented to me. In part because I do not want to make a mistake, in part because I don’t want to be tricked but a dark spirit, but I think mostly because I don’t want to get hurt or hurt anyone else when following through with the promptings.